Describe
the exercise and assessment process. What did you discover about yourself? What
area have you chosen to be a focus of growth and development? Why? What are
some specific exercises or activities that you can implement to foster greater
wellness in this area?
Through
completing the loving- kindness exercise I felt relaxed and at peace. I felt as
if what I was saying was helping me to feel that it perhaps would send good
ju-ju out in the world and maybe my positive thoughts would make a difference,
or so I hope anyways. Overall, it made
me feel really great and gave me good warm feelings inside. Through the
assessment process I was able to really focus in on myself and getting out of
my own way. I find that I really struggle with anxiety and I want to free
myself of that because it gets in the way of me enjoying my life and makes it
hard to laugh and smile the way that I should. So that is what I focused on for
this exercise and it helped, but through consistency perhaps it will help the
anxiety fade away permanently. I discovered that I need to get out of my own
way, allow life to come and go without trying to control it so much, it is just
too much mental work and in all actuality, I really have no control as to what
will happen, it’s life and I need to let that go and just relax and enjoy life
for what it is and let go of control and instead live, laugh and love. The
areas that I have chosen to focus on for my growth and development is self
regulation. By doing this, I will feel full, emotionally, mentally and
physically. I will not eat unneeded calories just to feel emotionally full, I’ll
take care of each area of my body by just being calm inside and out. I’ll play
more, let go of the things that hold me back such as my anxiety and when it
gets to bad I will meditate and LET IT GO!
Through all of this I have really discovered a different side of myself and
I like that side of me better, I’m a better mom, I feel calmer, less anxiety, I
am healthy on all levels of my being, I do not binge eat and eat in the middle
of the night, I sleep all night long and I wake up feeling ready to conquer the
day! I love myself and through that I am able to truly love another, I laugh
and play and I enjoy it!!! The best thing that I can do to continue to
implement this in my life is to be aware of how I am feeling, meditate, positive
self talk, stop letting homework and school rule my life because it makes me
crabby, love myself and others, remind myself that others love me just the way
that I am, practice prayer and yoga to touch the depths of my mind body and
soul to really “feel” and not numb out bad feelings like anxiety and loneliness
with food, and just live a happy life! Well, not that I have said all that….I
am going to HAVE FUN and go spend some time outside with my family instead of
cooped up in the house doing homework like I have been for the past 4 years of
my life. I never give myself a break and I think I need one now. I hope that
you all have a wonderful holiday weekend and remember life is too short to not enjoy
it. Live, love and laugh!
Love Meg
Hi Meg,
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed reading your blog. I am glad to hear you enjoyed the loving-kindness exercise. I found it very difficult. We had the almost exact opposite experience. We're all different and will grow using different methods.
I can relate to how you feel about homework. It sometimes feels never-ending and I have let it control my life more than I would like. Most of us have families and work commitments. We are learning how to reduce stress, but unfortunately for most of us school is another job. It sounds like you have made positive changes and I hope your anxiety continues to dissipate. It sounds like you may be close to graduating which would take away one of your stressors. :-)
I try to look at new experiences or changes as a challenge. It helps me to have a positive attitude. Hey, four years ago my ex-husband lost everything and moved in with me! It's been a challenge all right, but I figure it happened for a reason. It allowed me go attend school and not have to worry about finding new clients because we split the rent. I graduate in September and can't wait to move into my own place!
I hope you're enjoying the day! I am going to finish homework and also head outside.
Cynthia
Hi Megan,
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed your blog. You were very genuine and this class seems to have helped you deal with your anxiety. I agree with Cynthia, school is a huge stress in our lives and it is important for us to learn the art of balance in our lives or it will inevitably drive us crazy! Try to continue to live, love, and laugh and of course practice loving kindness in your life! It has definitely helped me!
LIVE-LOVE-LAUGH
-Angela
Oh Megan, I so enjoyed your post. I am really getting tired of anxiety ruling my every day life. I just want rid of it. You shared some good ways of doing so. I had the worse week EVER!!! I am just now getting to my school work. I only have 4 weeks left and it no longer consumes me but I believe I have developed some type of aversion to it. I was just told that my mood SUCKED this weekend and all I talk about school. I feel like I am about to have a nervous breakdown.
ReplyDeleteKeep practicing that loving kindness technique. Do you. Make yourself a priority. It all about balance and I have yet to master it. Good luck to you.
Peace&Blessings
T.